WTF is thisI see you now
You talk and laugh
And stand together
And act like everything's okay
But I can see right through you
You avoid each others' eyes
You don't exchange a single word
Your old love is a lie
Because you think you're better
He must be doing something right.
I respect him.
I love him.
You're nothing to me anymore.
Watching through the window
I remember when you'd hug with every passing
I remember the smiles on your faces
I remember when you were my parents.
Now it's just my dad, and you.
You're just there.
You don't speak to me
You don't speak to him
You beat him down.
You took from both of us
You took away my only lifeline
What, looking back, might have been my first love
But I'll never know, of course
Because you numbed me
Told me I couldn't love someone like that.
To hell with you. I'm pretty sure I did
But didn't have the time to tell.
Thanks to you
The ones around me I used to turn to
Have shut down and left me alone.
And now that you're gone
Your spiteful silence breaks me
Your stubborn silence breaks this family
My last holiday ruined
And no one to talk to about it this time
No one to fucking talk to
No one to scold me for my rash words
No one to really give a shit
Because it's not their problem, is it
Then explain to me
Why I always care?
Probably because I love
I do not force others to love me
I take comfort in my love for them.
And now I'll spend this last Christmas alone
All thanks to you
And your stupid beer
What are you going to do next year
When I'm gone
I might not even call you
Just to spite you
A belated thank-you for this year.
I'll have me, myself and I for company
Because the only present I need
And distance from you.