yet another disorganized poemDid I ever really die?If I did would you cryWhen you looked me in the eyeAnd saw that I was gone?Is this just the new beginning?Starting off with evil winningAnd the pale face of Death grinningAt my premature defeat?Am I not supposed to be here?Did I curse another new yearWith my stupid self-defense?What did I do wrong this time?Is this misery all mine?Did I bring it on myself?I think there's something else at work here.Something well-meant but maliciousSomething caring but unfaithfulSomething mistaken and untrue.Did I really make a bad moveOr is that just what they're saying?Did I really get hurt that badOr did I just gain more strength?Will they stop me finding truthOr will my "fortitude" prevail?Am I just living on a prayerLike a ship without a sail?Will the next time take me down?Will the next time raise me up?Will I ever see it coming?Do I have that much to loseBy keeping someone else from drowningIn despair, or in defeatOr in a victory so sweetIt
Um...I hate the world?Never again. I already said that.Unfaithful, redundantMy own thoughts all lies.What am I?Why am I?Destructive, so taunting.Why can't I escape?Someone help meBut leave me aloneBecause I hate you allOr do I?Pathetic, important.Whose logic is faulty?Yours, mine? The world's?The world is a fallacyHiding behind idolized walking billboardsAnd paintings of loveOn paper-thin glass. Look, don't touchOr it'll break and cut you to piecesCome down on your headLike the weight of the worldAnd have not the mercy to smash you into oblivion.Alone but undaunted.My own hope is torturing meLike a sign in hell that you're chained toThat gives directions to heaven.If only these chains could be broken.Am I down in the darkOr alone in empty space?Is it mine to controlOr my own fair mistake?Did I fall for the tearsOf a malevolent deathDid I really just hearMy own ragged last breath?Am I stronger nowThan I was before?Or are you just waitingTo push me through death's door?D
Let me gonitrogen heart so coldso dark help me but you can't because i won't let you seethe weakness inside that's destroying me all that comes in freezes to nothing cold
Guardian IntroI am Guardian, dark but freeFloating in the silenceMillenia have passed in spaceSerenity still reigns.In my eyes a thousand suns,Burning without fearIn my heart the thundering hoovesOf a thousand wild horses.My wings span night and day and timeCobalt, steel, and ebony, ofCrimson passion and golden fireIn rising fearless pride.My Guarded calls, I stoop from cloudsBeyond the eye of man.Iron talons pierce the soulOf my Guarded's evil foe.Shadowshift they know me notThat dark side deep withinThe source of vicious anger fellLike thunder-gods enraged.A falcon's cry, a lion's roarTear the shroud of nightAnd sends the coward enemyIn panicked, fearful flight...